Assalamualaikum Sarah & Iman :)
So its been some time since I wrote to you. I have been writing in our mother-daughter journal though. Iman has one too now, since she wanted to start one too. Mama now discovered a park near Iman's school. So after fetching Iman, I walk in the park. It is so refreshing and gives me a great energy boost to start the day.
I wish you both could have that too. Healthy living means starting the day with fresh air and exercise . And if you work in the rat-race (in a 9 to 5 job), you're not able to have this time to exercise in the mornings - and yet it is so important for our health - from a physical as well as psychological perspective.
Sarah you had your school holiday two weeks ago for a week. During that week we had breakfast together, we walked in the park together, we read books together at the mamak :), I sent you to a cookery class, we celebrated Iman's birthday, you had a playdate ice-skating with your schools friends. I hope you had a good time. But one week was just so short :(
After you started school, then Iman was on holiday. She is still on holiday (2 weeks). We went to Avillion PD this past weekend.... ah so nice to get away from the city, even for a night. I really enjoyed swimming in the sea with the both of you, kayaking, the bumpy seasports ride, walking on the beach in low tide, floating in the ocean at high tide, singing all those weird songs :) Wish our whole life could be a vacation! I can't imaging the lives of those families that worldschool their children. Subhanallah. The world , and their travels is their education. What a smart way to live. Mama does make du'a for that. It is not impossible for Allah to make it come true. He is the All-Powerful. I just have to want it enough.
Mama started seeing a counselor - her name is Dr Karen Golden. I am seeing her just by accident actually. I am a much better place in my life. I have come to terms with the divorce with your father - its been more than five years anyway. So I met up with her just to discuss how we could work together. She is co-founder of Islamic Parenting Consortium. I talked to her and we determined that I could benefit from some coaching - to have a direction on where I see myself and you both in 5 years. I dont really have a plan for the future. All I know is I'm ok now alhamdulillah. So I've been talking to her about my concerns about you both. I told her that I'm concerned that I'm not doing the right thing by sending you both to school. That I really want to homeschool or worldschool you, and that all the articles I read might indicate that I'm setting you up for mental health problems in your later life.
Additionally Sarah, you've been under a lot of stress with school work. You've had alot of homework everyday. You come back from school, and then spend so much time doing homework. This is not called childhood. This is torture. I feel so sad for you. Sometimes you're so frustrated you end up throwing tantrums. and Mama can't help, because I don't know how to help you with your homework. Firstly, I'm angry at your school for giving you so much homework.And then I'm angry that they don't teach you properly. They dont teach you HOW to think - they just teach you that you need to know this and not WHY you need to know this. Its aggravating for me. The deepest and most important questions you will ever ask yourself is "Who am I?", "What is my purpose in this world?", and school doesn't set you up for thinking about this - in fact it makes you accept whatever it is that you need to know,and not ask questions. If we do NOT ask these questions, we will never arrive at our true purpose in this world. I pray that you both ALWAYS ask these two important questions to understand what our purpose in this life and this world is. If we are sincere in seeking the answers, Allah will lead us to them. ALWAYS be sincere seekers of TRUTH. I love you xo