Iman you cried again L It has been 3 days already L I am so sad. I don’t know what to do. You don’t seem happy about school. Mama asked you if you want to change to your sister’s school and you said you don’t want to go to any school.
Allah… Mama prayed to ask Allah to show me the right way. If taking you both out of school is the right thing to do, then please make it easy for me to do so. Mama feels like I don’t have enough support. I feel like homeschooling is the option that makes the most sense – instinctively. The rigidity and pressure of schools just hamper emotional and psychological development of children.
Your father has very conventional views about education. He wants you to be in school. Dada and Nana also don’t support homeschooling. So Mama feels like I’m all alone in wanting to homeschool you. All these thoughts go through my mind. What if your Papa takes me to court? :’(
I pray Allah gives me strength to make the right decision for you both. I want to give you the best childhood I can… I’m not sure how. I couldn’t sleep last night.. Trying to think of a way out of this.. Everybody tells me it is an adjustment phase for you Iman… that its just the first few weeks. And that soon you’ll get used to it.
I just can’t stand seeing you always sad and moping around the house. It breaks my heart. I don’t know what to do. Please pray for our family.
January 13, 2017
Iman this is the 4th day you cried when I left you at school. My heart is breaking L
Today I promised that I’ll pick you up at 1230 (Friday) I thought it would be better, but it wasn’t . You still cried. I don’t know what to do. I feel horrible for doing that to you.
I think you are overwhelmed with the long hours. It is very long. Apart from that, I think that you don’t get enough play time. That is the case with all schools, not only your school. Sarah’s school doesn’t have any play time at all. I don’t understand it. Research shows that play time for children is really important and kids learn problem-solving skills and regulation through play. Yet schools don’t enforce free play time. I’m just stupefied. I’m so frustrated… and I resent SCHOOLS in general for being so backward thinking!
This past week and a half, I have been at your school everyday (except on Monday when I had to work and was at a birth). The first day I engaged in conversation with Principal Adam – he is your school’s eco-principal. I asked him how much sunlight do the children get while in class. He said some, but not much. He seems like a person who is open to learning and understanding. But he says the general awareness here is low. I agree. I think he left the conversation feeling like I was telling him to improve the school. I wasn’t I just wanted to engage in conversation with someone who understands my concerns about the importance of sunlight and unstructured play for young children.
I’m so sorry I had to leave you crying again. It breaks my heart every time. I just don’t know what to do. I feel like writing an email to your principal asking him to enforce play time. I don’t know how effective it will be. I think I will write an email to principal Adam. He seems like someone who might be open to considering suggestions. Allahua’lam.
I love you, and am praying for you when you are in school. I pray for both you and Sarah a lot now. I ask Allah to help us get out of this situation. Or deal with it better. He Alone knows what is best for each of us. Turn to him. I am turning to him inshaAllah… and also making efforts to make things better. Hasbi’Allah wani’mal wakeel.