My heart was breaking abit when I had to tear myself away from you. You ran after me. And it took every ounce of strength to steele myself and continue walking out the school gate. I was crying inside and crying now as I write this at the café behind your school.
I’m sorry I had to do it, but I know it’s the best for you inshaAllah.
Idrissi is a school that inshaAllah advocates and practices holistic learning – not only academic, but also spiritual and emotional. I’m so grateful that I’m able to send you there. Other schools in KL are much worse, and I know if you went to Sarah’s school it might be worse.
Of course, my first plan was to homeschool you and your sister. I believe kids to need to feel self-motivated and self-regulated. And that won’t happen at school – in institution where everything a child does is regulated - from where you have to sit, how you have to conduct yourself in class, where you can go where you can’t go, what time you have to eat, what time you have to leave , etc. Sure there are regulations and rules in real- life, but when you are self-regulated, it is much easier, and its easy for you to be self-directed when you are an adult.
What is self-directed? When you have the motivation to make your life the best life you can. You love your life and you achieve a lot in life, and you are satisfied with who you are. You live your life for a purpose, and not because other people want you to do things.
Anyway, I pray it gets easier for you , Iman. I will do my best to help you and your sister have a good childhood. I make du’a to Allah to allow me to provide you both with a childhood without worry and fear. Unfortunately you both have gone through a lot of that already – what with your father and mine’s divorce, etc. I pray that Allah is able to lessen the mental, psychological and emotional burden on both of you. And help me provide you both with a holistic environment where you can flourish into well-adjusted and loving human beings.